04 May 09
Me.
I am drunk!
It’s only 4 in the afternoon.
Just sayin. FINALS ARE OVER!!! WOOO hooo!!!
I am fucking graduating bitches!!
21 Apr 09
Food Poisoning.
Sucks ass!! I have never violently vomited this much in my life. I feel like the girl from The Exorcist.
Fuck Qdoba…and it’s 3-cheese nachos with chicken.
20 Jan 09
Inauguration Day 2009!!!
I am ecstatic. I just watched Obama officially become the President! I cried a little during his speech :) It made me happy.
What doesn’t make me happy is the fact that I get on facebook.com and ten of the people I formerly associated myself with decided they would change their status to ‘I’m moving to Canada’ or ‘We are all in trouble’, or ‘I hate our government’.
Why do people have to be so absurd?! WHY?!
I honestly truly hate the way people think and act sometime.
:(
07 Dec 08
bipolar disorder.
So, Nikki has been really stressed out the last month.. I have been through deaths and loved ones getting sick and car wrecks and all that fun stuff. But never once have I had to deal with a loved one having a disorder.
Bipolar…
hmmm. My best friend Kalee freaked out on me. She just broke up with her boyfriend and she moved in to one of her friends house… she started seeing this new guy… they had known each other maybe a week.. then she calls me and tells me they are getting married, she didn’t care what I had to say… she just wanted me to be there…
awesome right? I went to her house… and she was a wreck.. i thought maybe she was on X. She had been up for 3 days.. no sleeping! She is super vegan, and she was eating CHICKEN! and she was talking in song lyrics. She also thought she was dead and that I was Jesus.
I thought maybe she was delirious from not sleeping, so I made her go to bed (no getting married tonight). I stole her phone and called this guy she was supposed to be marrying. He told me that he had no idea what I was talking about and they never planned on getting married. hmmm. and the plot thickens. The boy said she had been acting really weird all day… he thought it was also from lack of sleep..
Over the next week, I realized it was not from lack of sleep. I remembered when we lived together she had went to a shrink and he said she was bipolar… so I googled and came up with this…
“Mania is generally characterized by a distinct period of an elevated, expansive, or irritable mood state. Sometimes people commonly experience an increase in energy and a decreased need for sleep. A person’s speech may be pressured, with thoughts experienced as racing. Attention span is low and a person in a manic state may be easily distracted. Judgment may become impaired; sufferers may go on spending sprees or engage in behavior that is quite abnormal for them. They may indulge in substance abuse, particularly alcohol or other depressants, cocaine or other stimulants, or sleeping pills. Their behavior may become aggressive or intrusive. People may feel out of control or unstoppable. People may feel they have been “chosen”, are “on a special mission”, or other grandiose or delusional ideas. Sexual drive may increase. At more extreme phases, a person in a manic state can begin to experience psychosis, or a break with reality, where thinking is affected along with mood.[2] Many people in a manic state experience severe anxiety and are very irritable (to the point of rage), while others are euphoric and grandiose.”
This described her to a T. So, we (her friends) rallied and put her in the hospital… sure enough, she was having a manic episode. She was in the hospital for 15 days before she was back to herself. She got to come home 2 days ago.
I visited her numerous times in the hospital. It was the scariest place ever! They had her in the psych ward… for obvious reasons, and I felt she didn’t need to be there. I knew something was wrong with her…but she wasn’t like really crazy. People in there were really off their rocker. One guy thought he was Santa Claus… another kept yelling at us because she thought we stole her roast beef sandwich from Arby’s and another kept telling me how pretty I was, starting from the shoes up…. Granted, it’s all kind of really funny, but since my best friend was in there.. I was extremely upset.
I had never had to deal with someone with bipolar disorder. I thought she was going to be crazy forever. My aunt went crazy when I was like 15, and no one has seen her since… she’s like some prostitute out in BFE. Sad to say, but true. I thought Kalee was going to end up in the hospital forever or she was going to walk the streets with the crazies or something.
When they released her and said she was better as long as she took her medicine, I was still hesitant… I went to see her and the all she said was O my GOD Nikki! and we both broke down and started crying… and I knew she was better.
She has to take medicine daily and she has to go to therapy once a week. I’m just happy to have my bestie back. It was the scariest thing ever. I would definitely rate that up there with death. Mainly because everything was unknown at the time. Thus, my rant about bipolar disorder. Sorry if I have been out of it lately :)
30 Oct 08
Racism.
I have been really scared about Barack Obama being elected President this year. The only reason is for the stupidity of those in the midwest, including Indiana and Kentucky. On the University of Kentucky’s campus an effigy of Obama was hung from a tree on campus and in Clarksville, Ind. a man did the same and said it was a Halloween decoration. Really??
How can so much racism still thrive in America??
Stuff like this makes me embarrassed to live here! Can people not just grow up and have respect for one another? Hasn’t anyone learned that one race is no different than another? I honestly feel that Obama has been so brave through out this and fear his life is in danger. If people are acting out now, what is going to happen when he is elected to run our country? And part of me wonders why he is putting his family through all of this…. I am just worried for him and pray that nothing happens. Heaven forbid nothing happens, but I don’t see that being the case with all this racism through out our country.
People disgust me.
